Friday, January 30, 2009


At times I feel that I just go through the motions. I love the saying "same old crap, just a different day". Daily I find myself doing and saying the same things without really noticing small (but significant) things, so I have been trying to pay better attention. I've been trying to see things differently (you know-find joy in the journey). Here are few things I've noticed.

Nate-would say every prayer if you would let him and is sad if he is not called on to do so. I've noticed his prayers are changing and coming from the heart. Is that a bad thing?

Tyton- still loves to crawl into bed with me in the early morning. Is that a bad thing? After all he is the baby:)

Mary- is loving primary and primary songs, two Sundays ago she said the prayer in primary and for a 5 year old with a new family and a new religion she's so warm, eager and brave. That's an amazing thing!!

J.T. - gets called a "ball hog" on the basketball court. He works so hard, never gets taken out of the game to give his body a rest and smiles at the referee when he is called for a fowl:) Is that a bad thing?

Macky-is learning that good grades in school bring sweet rewards, like ski trips. Is that a bad thing?

Brock-has learned that feeding the animals everyday also allows him to eat everyday!! Is that such a bad thing?

Tim - is learning that when you try to eat better and exercise daily, you have more energy:) That's not a bad thing, that's just a hard thing to do!!! Keep it up babe:)

Carly - is learning to love another family besides her own. That is definitely not a bad thing!!

Jami - is trying to see things differently and is realizing that "THINGS" do matter and that's a GOOD thing!!!!!!

Thursday, January 22, 2009


Nate came home from school last week telling me that his friend Kaitlyn was moving away. He was so sad!!! She is our neighbor and they have gotten to be good friends. I asked him where she was moving and he proceeded to tell me that she was moving in with Hannah Montana. I told him she was not moving in with Hannah Montana and he was adamant that she was. We argued about it for a little while and I just dropped it. Well yesterday when I was out walking, I passed by Kaitlyn's house and this lady was trying to carry a huge Lazy-Boy Chair in the house, so I stopped to help her and we started talking (to make a long story short) I found out that Kaitlyn has moved to MONTANA!! I just started laughing, I am sure the lady thought I was a loon:) Nate did get the Montana right. I love that boy!!!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

God Bless America!!!

The events of yesterday as our "NEW" President took office found me a little sick to my stomach and a little irritated. I know that I suffer with IRRITATION, yes I have been diagnosed:) Yesterday I didn't watch the inauguration, I was at court in Holbrook, over matters with our foster daughter (CPS crap). When I got home around 2 it was still on the T.V., so I watched a little of it. My son Brock (not Barack) got home and asked me if I watched it and I told him I hadn't. He said "mom we watched it today and my teacher said we are a part of history" I said "Yes - you are son". He said "mom, you should of heard the prayer that was said". I then asked him about the prayer. He replied "It was a forever long prayer and I don't think the person knew who he was talking to"!! I know that President Obama didn't offer the prayer but I must admit his comment really hit me, for me that's what I have been struggling with about our "NEW" President. I don't feel he is a GOD FEARING MAN and that is why my stomach was nervous all day. Our Founding Fathers turned to God and through God our Constitution was constructed and set in place and I worry and wonder just how much our "NEW" President will turn to him for help and guidance with ALL the decisions he has to make in regards to our GREAT Nation!!! I'm grateful for my Brock and the knowledge that he has at such a young age, that there is a God in Heaven and to him and only him we pray!! I am especially grateful that I can pray to him in times of uneasiness, uncertainty and doubt.

Thursday, January 15, 2009


Okay - so I came up with this crazy new years resolution to give up soda, or should I say CAFFEINE!! I got to feeling guilty when I read an article in the Ensign and one in the New Era on caffeine. I rationalized for a LONG while and convinced myself that I really didn't have that big of a problem but it kept really bugging me, so I decided in 2009 I was going to be Caffeine free (except for Chocolate - that will never happen:) Let me just tell you that it has been one of the hardest things that I have ever done. I had a terrible( and I mean terrible) headache for about 10 days. I slept sitting up because if I tried to lie down I thought my head was going to blow!! There was a couple of times in the night when I thought Tim was going to have to drive me to the E.R.. I have since discovered and learned that I probably should have tried to wean myself off of it, although I think that would have been a challenge for me, because I seem to be an "ALL OR NOTHIN" kind of gal!! It has been a lot harder then I thought and the craving is still there. I guess you could say I have an ADDICTION!! Just thinking about what my body and mind (and spirit) has gone through the last 2 weeks in an effort to get off the stuff is enough for me to say" I will never go there again"!!!!

Thursday, January 8, 2009


Okay - have you ever had one of those days where you have absolutely had enough?? I had been going on my 3rd day of a lingering headache. I was tired of feeling like crap and when I get headaches I am not very FUN to be around. My little guys had pretty much spent 2 days of doing whatever they wanted, so you can imagine what my house looked like:) We started picking things up around the house and I went to put something up that belonged in my little boys bedroom. They were in their room cleaning (I mean playing) and as I entered their absolutely trashed room I said under my breath "I'm going to kill someone". Yes I know I shouldn't of said what I said, (my migraine was speaking). Nate heard me and after a loud gasp said "Mom, We Don't Kill People - We Kiss People"!!! I grabbed him and started kissing his face all over!!!
That funny little comment really did save his life:)!!!!! There is never a quiet, dull or clean moment with raising boys, but boy I sure do LOVE them!!!!